It has been seven months since that perfect night in Currituck with beautiful Marie.
Dan is in front of me playing Tetris 2. Marie and I talked over the phone last night. She is having a good time in New Jersey. She doesn’t seem to be missing me. That is a good thing I guess. She is in the world she knows best. I am in the corporate world I know not of.
. . .
It is a little later on this Friday night now. I just got off the phone with Marie. She called while I was writing earlier. Part of me feels like she doesn’t want to have a relationship with me anymore. I think she’s going to run away.
I just pray that you guide her God. If you want her to go, then please let it happen. We’ve had some good times, but perhaps I am not the best fit for her. The last thing I want is to be a burden to her.
I’d give the world to be home tonight. I just don’t know where that is.
Dan is still playing Tetris 2.
I am in a place I’ve never been.
Oh God, it feels like that is all I have. Just these words on these pages.
I’d rather have you Jesus.
Feels like much is on my heart.
But I’ve got nothing to say.