Sometimes I begin to write and I see that it has been a few days and I try to recap what I’ve done, but this time it is more important to figure out how I feel or how I got to this new place. Don’t get me wrong, at this moment I’m in my apartment, on my bed; I haven’t physically gone anywhere, but my heart has.
Recently, I’ve felt torn between my two different work worlds of church and school. I felt God pushing me towards school and away from church. This confused me because my traditional way of thinking has always been to get involved in the church first and foremost. Last year, I just went to school, but was involved with church. Now God is saying to do the opposite.
I believe Master’s Commission was my last bit of serious youth ministry and youth work. I’m 23 and there’s many valuable years between that and the 16-year-olds I’ve been hanging out with recently. So, I think I’m going to just teach the class on Wednesdays until David can find someone else, and I’m going to focus on school. I’m going to completely let the drama team go, and I will not go to that many youth services anymore. I’ll still hang out with Sterling, Christin, Kimberly, Brandon, and Jason, but I just need to let go of the teenage life. I’ve been living it for way too long.
What a good thing that youth church has been in my life. I’m so thankful I shared so many days with them. It feels good to come to this new stage. Thank you God.
So, it is Saturday morning. Kerstin is back from Germany. I met her at the airport last night. I’ve got plenty of work ahead of me thanks to my classes and my thesis film. I’m going to see Caedmon’s Call in three weeks. I have a backstage pass.
It is a beautifully rainy day thanks to Hurricane Dennis. It is nice to be in September.
Mary Jo and her guy Rob, plus Stephen, took me out to eat for my birthday. All the beautiful waitresses sang happy birthday to me.
Lindy called me at midnight to wish me a happy birthday. And Nate called me as well. He is in high school now.
I worked at the bookstore all day on Tuesday. It was the best day! They had a cake and everything for me.
Sterling’s family had me over for dinner that night and Kimberly came over as well. We all met up with other folks from the youth group to go pick David up from the airport. He has been in Bogota.
I met with Lorene since she is going to be the chair for my thesis film I’m doing. I’ve titled it DANG!. I have to incorporate my own production company to produce it properly and legally. I bought a book on how to do that last night. This is kind of crazy.
I can feel in the air that autumn is on its way. This 23rd year of my life is going to be something else. My movie will take up most of it, plus a full year of classes, not to mention teaching at the church on Wednesday nights. I’ll also be working on a feature length script for my story structure class. The summer is almost over.
On Monday I have an audition for a CBN/700 Club feature story. Someone told the director that I look exactly like this real life murderer, so I’ve been asked to read for the part. Should be fun!
The rest of this past week has been nice. We had drama practice at Parkway on Thursday and on Friday after youth group I went over to Kimberly’s with Sterling to watch Patch Adams. I worked on my script supervisor notebook for the “Victor and Rosa” summer film, then that evening I went to a little swimming gathering at Christin’s.
Mary had left me her convertible, so Jason and Brandon and I took it down to the Outer Banks. It was a beautiful drive. We went down to the huge sand dunes and then ate out. Those guys are the greatest
Mary Jo had a friend come visit and he stayed over at my place. His name is Steven and he is 25. He will be a student here in the fall.
Lorene will be my chair for my portfolio project in order to graduate. I’m beginning to work the details out now.
I got to talk to both Dan and Abigail the other day, and even got to see Justin. The film shoot starts tomorrow.
God is great and life is good.
Saturday night the youth group had a big bon-fire cookout thing out in Suffolk. The stars were so bright and pretty and there were railroad tracks. I love railroad tracks!
Sterling, Christin, and Kimberly toilet-papered my car and I made them feel terrible about it, which I later felt horrible about.
We had a meeting yesterday with the Master’s Commission team. I met my other partner, her name is Mary. She is very sweet and very pretty and love’s God more than anything. We leave in less than two weeks.
Because of that, I’ve made some changes to the drama team. Michelle is now the leader with Robin and Angie as her helpers. I’ll mentor them when I can, but I just have too many other things going on. I have rehearsals every night this week for school. I even have a few during lunch time. And I still have to finish my 15-page paper.
Time is moving so fast.
But at least I’m not bored.
Tammie and Jose came up on Friday and led the youth service. We all went to IHOP afterwards. It was so nice to see them.
On Saturday I visited with Sterling and Kimberly. We watched A Bug’s Life, and that night I went to see a show with Kerstin at the Regent Theater. Yesterday was my day to work with the Greensprings youth group up in Williamsburg. I had a great time. They are so funny up there.
That night I followed them to a totally rocking’ youth service deeper into Williamsburg and God showed up.
I don’t want fame. I don’t want money. I only want souls for His Kingdom.
Spend me wherever you desire God. I am yours.
What a memorable weekend!
I saw three bald eagles yesterday at Busch Gardens in Williamsburg. I went with Sterling’s family, Christin, and Jeremy. We had a great time despite the fact that Jeremy talked about himself the whole time. He seems so desperate for attention; help me give him what he needs Lord.
Friday morning was the Lunchbox theater performance of A Midsummer Night’s Dream where I had a small role. It went really well.
We had drama practice yesterday and God really moved on me during the youth service.
Something is happening though. Something I cannot explain or put a finger on. I pray I do not take this life for granted. None of this seems to be lasting, yet it is all so distracting. Please don’t tell me what is happening God. I’m afraid I might run away!
It’s been a wonderful Easter Sunday! I went to Sterling’s after church, then over to Christian’s and Connie’s, where we played frisbee. We celebrated Easter as well as a group member’s birthday.
A southern gospel group called the Tully Trio put on a concert at church tonight. It was surprisingly good. Afterwards, myself and eight of the teens from youth went out to eat at Applebee’s.
Kimberly’s cousin was with us, and he kept laughing so hard at all my jokes that he began choking and snot bolted out of his nose. It was a fun evening. I do not believe I have yet grasped the realization of the true treasure that is in each of the teens here. Please God, teach me that before it’s too late.