The 20th anniversary of Regent University is being celebrated. I went to the convocation yesterday. Dr. Jack Hayford spoke, as well as Pat Robertson. It was a moving ceremony.
I am working this Saturday in just a few minutes, so I can have next Saturday off in order to go to King’s Dominion. Youth church was awesome last night. I had such a good time in worship.
My film audition for Saturday Despair was kind of weird on Thursday. I have another audition today after work.
There is a lot going on, but I have yet to find some really close friends. That takes time though.
I spent a couple of hours hanging out with Nicole the other night. She seems really lonely as well. She’s 24 and this is her first time away from home.
I received two amazing letters from Emily yesterday. She is the sweetest thing on this planet.
Sarah hasn’t emailed me in nearly two weeks.
Jeni and Abigail just had birthdays, and it’s the 12th of September again. Yesterday was a historical day in Washington D.C., but I forgive our President.
I talked with Colleen yesterday. She reminds me so much of Jessica. She loves the outdoors. We talked about going camping some time soon.
Thank you for your love God. Thanks for using me. You are my everything.
It’s been three years now since Syndi and I went to Deep Creek. That night with her, just sitting and talk in her car, still remains one of the most amazing conversations of my life. I can in no way remember what was said, but only that it made an impression upon my soul.
Friday night’s youth service went really well, and we are having our first drama meeting on Wednesday night. These kids are amazing. I can’t believe God gave me this beautiful family so early after arriving to a new land.
Yesterday, Nicole and a girl named Patricia and I went up to my Grandparent’s house for lunch and to do some filming for a video project we have due. We had such a good time. My grandparents were great hosts.
Last night I went over to Mary Jo’s and April’s since they were having a get-together. I met some new people and we laughed the whole night.
The God that I love today is the same God who loved me and watched over me in my youth. Even then, he knew.
I talked with Josh and Jessica over the weekend. Josh was such an inspiration to me. He also seemed lonely. He misses me and I miss him. He said things are different at Lees-McRae. He said I was able to join all the people together and he can tell a difference now that I’m not there. I told him that he should make the effort to bring people together. We prayed and he admitted that perhaps it was him and not the others. He says he feels really insecure and he’s not sure the others want to be his friend.
I do miss Lees-McRae, but I know that is not where I supposed to be right now. I know without a doubt that is was where God wanted me for the days between August 28, 1994 and May 10, 1998.
And he has set these days here at Regent aside for me now.
We had a youth ministry meeting last night. I’m excited about how God is using me at Parkway. I also talked to Jeni over the phone last night. It is so great to know we have a wonderful friendship.
I got an email from Sarah. It was rude and cold, but I wrote the nicest letter back.
Orientation is tomorrow. I only have classes on Monday, which I guess is nice, but it is very different from what I’m used to. I want to go to class, I like it, but now they are all crammed into one day. How different my new world is.
Matt called last night. He went to Minnesota because his girlfriend’s dad has brain cancer and might die. I’ve had the place to myself and it’s simply insane with how well I get along with myself.
Emily is supposed to call tonight. I wish I could hold her. She makes life normal. She makes it romantic. She adds so much and she does so little. I do hope the day will come when we can see each other again.
I need to share my heart, to share my life. I need to ride out and see the Grand Canyon with someone.
Hurricane Bonnie is on her way. I am not afraid.
My encounter with Rachel was a good one. We talked about 30 minutes. She knows I’m at Parkway and she knows some kids out there. She said she might come out on Friday nights.
There was a bombing in Cape Town yesterday. It seems like the world is about to explode.
I awoke this morning to a note from Matt on my bathroom mirror saying he had to leave in the middle of the night to go on a secret mission. He won’t be back until Sunday night. I’ve decided I think Matt is a little weird.
Last night I called Tracey, Lindy, Abigail, Ann-Marie, Dan, Vince, and Ashley from Lees-McRae. They started their classes today. How strange it is that I am not there. I miss them all so much.
God please be with me here. Let me grow and prosper. Bring people to me that I can minister to and bring me to people who can minister to me.
I love you God.
I need you.
In about three hours I’m going to go see the girl I met on Friday at Greenbrier Mall. Her name is Rachel. God please guide our conversation.
Church was so good yesterday. Parkway Temple is perfect for me. Last night the youth pastor Jose, his wife Tammy, David, and a 20-year-old named Aaron all came over here and we had a meeting, and they basically just handed their entire Drama Ministry over to me. They said I have complete artistic freedom. I’m so excited!
Yesterday afternoon, David and I went to the beach. The water was so strong because of Hurricane Bonnie. And I have to admit, like a kid in grade school, I wrote Rachel’s name in the sand.
Friday night I went with David and Cindy to Hampton to go to a revival service at Bethel Temple. And once we entered, David and I went into the bookstore there. I immediately saw a beautiful young woman with the most amazing smile, hair, facial features, wow! She was reading a book, and her beauty struck me so suddenly, I couldn’t help but verbalize it out loud. David heard me, but she didn’t.
We looked at some music and then sat down and after some time, she came and sat next to me with her parents and grandparents. I didn’t say anything. She began talking to me and we really seemed to enjoy each other’s company.
The service was great. We prayed a lot for our nation due to all of this Clinton sex stuff, and U.S. strikes on Sudan and Afghanistan. As we were leaving she asked me if I would be back for another Friday night service. I told her I wasn’t sure, but I asked her for her phone number and she happily gave it to me. She lives in Chesapeake, in a place called Deep Creek (imagine that) and she works at Greenbrier mall at a Christian bookstore; that’s only five minutes from my apartment! She asked me to come and see her there.
I told her I would.
I worked today and then went to be an extra on a student film being shot nearby. I learned so much by just watching. I stayed on set for about two and a half hours.
I ended the day talking with my brother and dad over the phone. My brother has decided not to return to college and I felt this desire to lovingly confront my father about his pornography addiction. I felt God directed our conversation and I hope some healing has begun in his heart.
I am smiling so brightly. I love you Lord!
I have the day off and I am sitting alone facing the Atlantic Ocean. I have discovered the beach for locals, it’s called Sandbridge, and no longer venture to the tourist trap that is Virginia Beach actual. It is a beautiful day. The waves are too powerful and no one is allowed in the water. I just went for a walk and my steps joined in harmony with the crashing waves and the snapping bubbles of the surf. I sang praises to my Lord and felt my Jesus with me.
The past two days of work were nice, and David and I visited Cindy’s on Wednesday night and enjoyed some yummy pizza. Oh, and yesterday I called Lindy, and the two of us had the best conversation in the world.
I miss her.
I want her to come and see me.
So, here I am. I will turn 22 after this weekend, I’ve experienced the beginnings of wonderful new friendships, and I’m facing a body of water that touches Africa, a land from which I have just returned. And I’m about to start film school!
David has complimented me many times on how well I fit in with all the different groups of people. Yet, he also says that when I blend in, I do it without changing who I am.
Wow, 19 pelican just flew over my head, all in a straight line. Perhaps one day I can blend in with them and fly away.
But it is nice to have this sand, this earth, while I can. I’ll be able to fly some day, but it is not now. Now, I have the joy of sitting in complete peace with myself. I can’t believe the world is full of so much beauty and so much love.
I love you God.
I love you.