Wednesday was Jenna’s birthday. I called my two friends from here out west and I was reminded of how much I need them and how much they are a part of me. Tenielle was excited to talk to me. She said that she wrote me a long letter and sent it in the mail. I talked to Jenna, who just turned 16, and they told me that they loved me when I said goodbye.
Yesterday, Brandon and I went to town and ran some errands. We met Sara and they went shopping for a pet rat, but ended up buying a bunny. It is adorable. We spent the evening at Sara’s apartment with her
I’m not sure about those two. I asked Brandon if he thought they would last, and he said they better. But not only do they have a bunny, they have a baby coming in September. They are stuck with each other.
Today we went to garage sales, but bought nothing, then took a drive through Jerome and Cottonwood to Sedona. We picked up some hitchhikers and took them to Cottonwood. We saved them about a two days walk. The sites were beautiful. I took a lot of pictures. I felt like a child again, being born for the first time and discovering the world.
Last week was terrible, this week has been amazing. A whole new world. All new people. I’ve learned by watching this family and by watching Brandon and Sara. And I have one day left.
I discovered an hold tape here and on it was written Christmas Come to Detroit Louie. It was a play performed at Abundant Life on December 15th and 16th of 1990. I was in it. My first public performance and I got all the laughs. It’s on tape. I have proof. How I long to grow in my work as an actor and filmmaker. It burns inside me. I think about Braveheart and how it reminds me of Jesus, a man who died for someone else’s freedom.
The sights today were so big. How small I am. How simple, yet how complex.
Here, I look above me and see a sky I’ve never seen before. I look at me, and I realize for the first time, I am alive.
And everyone else around me…they are too.