Today was a crazy day.
I talked to Emily last night and she said the strangest thing:
“Jacob, you have to promise me something. If neither of us are married by the time we are 30, let’s marry each other.”
That blew me out of the water. That’s not very far away. We shall see.
I sometimes wonder if I’m called to be single my whole life. Sharon, quite possibly the world’s greatest wife and mother, is already taken so staying single may not be a bad thing.
Speaking of, Sharon said she saw Rebecca St. James in concert last night. She hung out with her family and even talked about me to Rebecca. Crazy!
I don’t even know Rebecca, but I miss her.
Today is my mother’s birthday. She turns 45. I just called her. She has a job working for the city, and Henry is going to class and working part-time at the local Wal-Mart. I’m sure this would make no sense to the world. Henry had a great job as a detective at UNC and now he is pushing carts. But they are not of this world and he is where God wants him to be.
Nate is now in 8th grade. I switched schools in 6th grade and that was rough, I’m sure switching in 8th grade is even more difficult.
Mom says they will stay down there for Thanksgiving. She wants us to come down, but I’ve already made plans, so I can’t.
Yesterday after work I auditioned for a sci-fi film being produced independently by some Regent students. It is something they hope to sell and turn into a series. Call backs are next Wednesday; we’ll see. The audition was so much fun. I do love this stuff.
Yesterday I saw two movies, Rounders and Simon Birch. They were both fantastic! Sitting behind me in the theater was a huge group of guy friends and it made me miss Vince, Dan, Allen, Curtis, Justin, Charlie, and Josh so much. I just miss laughing with them and letting the world fade away.
The 20th anniversary of Regent University is being celebrated. I went to the convocation yesterday. Dr. Jack Hayford spoke, as well as Pat Robertson. It was a moving ceremony.
I am working this Saturday in just a few minutes, so I can have next Saturday off in order to go to King’s Dominion. Youth church was awesome last night. I had such a good time in worship.
My film audition for Saturday Despair was kind of weird on Thursday. I have another audition today after work.
There is a lot going on, but I have yet to find some really close friends. That takes time though.
I spent a couple of hours hanging out with Nicole the other night. She seems really lonely as well. She’s 24 and this is her first time away from home.
I received two amazing letters from Emily yesterday. She is the sweetest thing on this planet.
Sarah hasn’t emailed me in nearly two weeks.
Jeni and Abigail just had birthdays, and it’s the 12th of September again. Yesterday was a historical day in Washington D.C., but I forgive our President.
I talked with Colleen yesterday. She reminds me so much of Jessica. She loves the outdoors. We talked about going camping some time soon.
Thank you for your love God. Thanks for using me. You are my everything.
It’s been three years now since Syndi and I went to Deep Creek. That night with her, just sitting and talk in her car, still remains one of the most amazing conversations of my life. I can in no way remember what was said, but only that it made an impression upon my soul.
Friday night’s youth service went really well, and we are having our first drama meeting on Wednesday night. These kids are amazing. I can’t believe God gave me this beautiful family so early after arriving to a new land.
Yesterday, Nicole and a girl named Patricia and I went up to my Grandparent’s house for lunch and to do some filming for a video project we have due. We had such a good time. My grandparents were great hosts.
Last night I went over to Mary Jo’s and April’s since they were having a get-together. I met some new people and we laughed the whole night.
The God that I love today is the same God who loved me and watched over me in my youth. Even then, he knew.
I talked with Josh and Jessica over the weekend. Josh was such an inspiration to me. He also seemed lonely. He misses me and I miss him. He said things are different at Lees-McRae. He said I was able to join all the people together and he can tell a difference now that I’m not there. I told him that he should make the effort to bring people together. We prayed and he admitted that perhaps it was him and not the others. He says he feels really insecure and he’s not sure the others want to be his friend.
I do miss Lees-McRae, but I know that is not where I supposed to be right now. I know without a doubt that is was where God wanted me for the days between August 28, 1994 and May 10, 1998.
And he has set these days here at Regent aside for me now.
Another September 2nd has come and gone again. Already September. Ten days until the six year anniversary of that night in the balcony with Ryan and the others watching Jason perform two roles in Camelot.
Such good days.
Monday classes were fun. I have definitely found my place and can that God destined me to attend this school here and now so long ago. Tuesday afternoon I went to see Saving Private Ryan again, only this time with two girls I met at the swing club, Chris and Nicole. Nicole is 24 and Chris is 22. After class on Monday, Nicole and I walked back to the Regent Apartments together. It is long trail through the woods and we had a nice chat. And after the movie yesterday, we hung out together in Nicole’s apartment for a while, just talking about movies.
I got an email from Sarah. She says she went to Banner Elk Christian Fellowship on Sunday and plans to continue. That is a good thing. She seems to be doing okay, but her email had an echo of loneliness in it.
I sent Doc an email, just thanking her for Lees-McRae and telling her what was going on. She sent a lovely poem back to me and said she posted that email for all to read.
I purchased the widescreen version of Titanic yesterday and watched it last night with Matt.
I couldn’t help but think of my days with Sarah.
I miss the sound of her voice.
The storm hit hard. Orientation was cancelled. Emily never called. But Friday night’s youth was amazing. I feel so comfortable there. Yesterday I drove around downtown Norfolk. That’s such a big city to me.
I’ve been watching a lot of VeggieTales videos and have simply been have the best time in the world. The summer of ’98 is coming to a close.
School begins again.
Hurricane Bonnie is on her way. I am not afraid.
My encounter with Rachel was a good one. We talked about 30 minutes. She knows I’m at Parkway and she knows some kids out there. She said she might come out on Friday nights.
There was a bombing in Cape Town yesterday. It seems like the world is about to explode.
I awoke this morning to a note from Matt on my bathroom mirror saying he had to leave in the middle of the night to go on a secret mission. He won’t be back until Sunday night. I’ve decided I think Matt is a little weird.
Last night I called Tracey, Lindy, Abigail, Ann-Marie, Dan, Vince, and Ashley from Lees-McRae. They started their classes today. How strange it is that I am not there. I miss them all so much.
God please be with me here. Let me grow and prosper. Bring people to me that I can minister to and bring me to people who can minister to me.
I love you God.
I need you.