I stand in awe of you God.
I went for a walk yesterday. I went to the treehouse, but the ladder was broken and I couldn’t get up to the top. So, I continued to walk towards Wildcat Lake. I stopped and talked with an elderly gentleman. He told me some stories from his past and that brought everything into perspective. I realize now that I don’t know anything at all.
When I arrived at Wildcat Lake, I discovered the swings had been taken down for the winter. The lake was completely still, a perfect mirror, as was my soul.
Life is short.
Life is long.
Things come and go.
I wish I didn’t know these truths.
Sarah came over last night. We are growing. People call my room looking for her now. She holds my hand in front of others now. We talk. We sit in silence. I touch her soft face and run my fingers across her lips. She is beautiful to me. She tells me the funniest, most beautiful stories. She is full of love.
When I’m with her, I forget the past, I forget the future, I forget the fact that I’m leaving after a single semester, and all I see is her, right in front of me. She freezes time for me.
I think our friends have started talking about us. Who knows what is being said. But it matters not. I don’t know what is going on between us, save for this one fact: when she is near, time grows in quality.
She gave me a poem. She didn’t write it. It was something she found in a book, but she said it described us perfectly:
What is a friend? I’ll tell you.
It is a person with whom you dare to be yourself.
Your soul can go naked with him.
He seems to ask you to put on nothing, only be what you really are.
When you are with him, you do not have to be on your guard.
You can say what you think, so long as it is genuinely you.
He understands those contradictions in your nature that cause others to misjudge you.
With him you breathe freely, you can avow your little vanities and envies and absurdities, and in opening up to him they are dissolved on a white ocean of his loyalty.
He understands. You can weep with him, laugh with him, pray with him, and through and underneath it all, he sees, knows, and loves you.
A friend, I repeat, is one with whom you dare to be yourself.”
She is a gift from God.