A hard day, but I learned so much. My lip hasn’t gotten much better. I felt really light headed this morning. During the service, Molly and her friend Autumn sang a beautiful song. The pastor gave a great sermon. In Sunday School we learned about the last days and this afternoon I read the play Shadowlands. All of this came together in my mind to form one central truth about life:
Real life hasn’t yet begun.
As I slept last night in my most wonderful bed with my teddy in my arms, I dreamt.
I dreamt of a girl. She is 16, she has long black hair, she attends my church and goes by the name of Laura. In this dream, just her and I were free, in a very nice car, driving out west.
We were in Arizona. All we did was drive and talk. We were a couple; the most perfect couple that ever existed. By the end of the dream I dropped her off at a campsite. A sign was posted at the entrance saying, “Laura Loves Someone.”
She walked up the trail and looked back and smiled.
I knew that someone was me. My lip was even healed. Life was perfect. But my dream ended. Sunday morning had arrived. I was in North Carolina.
It took me a while to clean my lip of all the dry, crusted, saliva. I finally made it to church, feeling very weak. I discovered another odd something growing in my mouth. I didn’t know what it was and I still don’t.
I grew very stressed. I went to the bathroom and prayed. During the service I was unable to sing. Everyone kept asking me how I was doing. I simply said, “Not too good.”
Jim’s sermon was on the third chapter of Ecclesiastes. There’s a time for everything. Good times. Bad times. It all equals out to be even. Therefore my problems with my lip will be evened out with something good later. Just like the terrible week I had before Spring Break was awarded with Arizona. It helped me to handle my health problems better.
I saw Laura, but she did not speak to me. She even came to Lees-McRae today to play tennis; Molly and others came as well. I didn’t see them much though. I had to read Shadowlands and go to the PA year end work call.
Which reminds me of last night. Don had a party with a live band and all. Don is our Technical Director. He’s really cool. I worked for three hours then went to the RA banquet. When that was over, I went to the library, then came back here.
Earlier today though, as I read Shadowlands, was so special. That play has so much truth. This world is only the shadowlands of what is to come. Shadows exist because of light.