The services here at camp are full of so much freedom. “Ain’t no party like the Holy Ghost party ’cause the Holy Ghost party don’t stop!”
We went rock climbing today. The challenge of it all obsesses me. It was so much fun!
Mary is a beautiful woman of God. If she wanted me…I’d be hers. I’m so thankful for these three weeks to be in her presence. She is so adventurous and so in love with Jesus. She is brilliant! She plans to go back to Oklahoma to finish school in August.
Your will Lord. Your will only. Please show me what to do. Take care of our hearts. If this goes any further than fleeting emotion then…well God, I need a Godly wife. Someone to share this life with. If my prayers have anything to do with it, then I want her.
This camp is so wonderful! I feel so fun and free. We’ve called our team the Corn Bread Posse! At service last night so many people were freed from sin and addiction. I prayed with one girl who had a demonic manifestation before being set free. God is so good.
Mary returned this morning. She was away briefly so she could attend her brother’s graduation. I met a couple of her friends.
I can’t emphasize how badly I needed these days. I’m surrounded by so much energy, joy, and love. Jesus is inviting me to a higher level of holiness, yet all the while every night is full of laughter.
Thank you Lord for this.
We woke up two hours ago and went running before having our quiet time. I went for a walk in the rain and saw three deer. We are surrounded by a national forest, it’s really beautiful here.
I have to leave pretty soon to drive back down to Newport News and bring some kids back up to camp. It’s three hours away. That’s the same distance Lees-McRae was from Siler City. Well, I guess it still is.
It’s great to be away. My mind is free to reflect on more important matters.
Mary has such an amazing spirit. The girls she mentors are Amber, Megan, Missy, T-Sha, Briana, Dina, Erica, Kristen, and maybe another one, but I forgot her name.
The summer already feels like it is passing so quickly. All of this will be over before I want it to be.
Oh God, you are the giver of such good things. I want to be closer to you and hear your voice more clearly. You are so beautiful in my sight.
I give you all that you have created me to be.
I feel like crying…crying because I don’t have best friend here. At the moment, I feel so very much alone, very misunderstood, and I never feel like I can fully relax into the friendships I have here.
I talked to Justin, Abigail, Tracey, and Sarah the other night. They sounded so good. Sarah and I are all healed and that completely amazes me. But these dear people are all far away. Justin is in town, but at camp. I leave in a week, so I won’t get to see him.
I’ll soon be around a new group of people. Before I even depart, I guy I don’t know from Richmond is staying with me for a week while he helps out on a film shoot.
Oh Jesus…what is going on?
How am I doing?
I feel life has become so different and I don’t want it to be. Is it my perspective or are things really changing? Am I still young? What do you want me to do? Where have all my simple joys gone? I am missing them so. Why all this stress? Life didn’t use to be this way.
Mom called me the other night. She and Henry are having problems in their marriage. They say they’re spiritual attacks because of their involvement with the Brownsville Revival and they are going to counseling. I hope they’re still good.
There is a family reunion happening at Deep Creek, but I can’t go due to the film shoot.
Change. I both love and hate it.
Tenielle called me at one o’clock in the morning. She is 17-years-old now, graduating from high school, and possibly joining the Army in October. Jenna’s baby is a year and a half now. She and Herb never got married. I also found out that Tenielle and my brother Kevin were actually boyfriend and girlfriend at one time and actually kissed. But Kevin was 21, and Tenielle was only 14. That’s just sick!
But Tenielle seems to be doing okay now. She sounded good. We talked about how Carol is now raising five kids on her own since her husband left and is now addicted to cocaine. She also said that Scott was just a big fat drunk now. What happened? I used to look up to these people.
Sharon also called me to tell me that Laura’s boyfriend David is off in Albania where some sort of war is going on. With the job he has, that’s just what he does, he goes to the worst part of the world at the moment and lends a hand, trying to bring peace. Laura says she can’t live like that. She wants someone who can be there at the end of the day. They are both just pitiful since they are learning they aren’t compatible. Missions is on David’s heart and not on Laura’s, so he shouldn’t bring her along.
I took off from work until the middle of the July, simply to finish school for the summer and to do Master’s Commission. The extra time is really nice. I’m constantly in rehearsal for scenes in Actor Coaching. Gin and Christy and I are a team. They’re both fun. Christy is getting married and has rekindled my belief that there are still good girls out there worth marrying.
Well, Lord…I give you another delightful day!
Saturday night the youth group had a big bon-fire cookout thing out in Suffolk. The stars were so bright and pretty and there were railroad tracks. I love railroad tracks!
Sterling, Christin, and Kimberly toilet-papered my car and I made them feel terrible about it, which I later felt horrible about.
We had a meeting yesterday with the Master’s Commission team. I met my other partner, her name is Mary. She is very sweet and very pretty and love’s God more than anything. We leave in less than two weeks.
Because of that, I’ve made some changes to the drama team. Michelle is now the leader with Robin and Angie as her helpers. I’ll mentor them when I can, but I just have too many other things going on. I have rehearsals every night this week for school. I even have a few during lunch time. And I still have to finish my 15-page paper.
Time is moving so fast.
But at least I’m not bored.
I go with Christin to her prom tonight. I’m excited. It should be fun.
This weekend Gina and Christy and I worked on our video project for Actor Coaching. We finished this morning. Christy’s getting married soon; she’s so awesome!
Friday night’s youth service was amazing as usual. Kimberly and I had a neat little ministry time where I just held her and touched her face. She cried in my arms. There’s also a little girl named Regina that I’ve become pretty good buddies with.
It’s so great to love these people!