June 23, 1999 – Wednesday – 6:36 p.m.

The services here at camp are full of so much freedom.  “Ain’t no party like the Holy Ghost party ’cause the Holy Ghost party don’t stop!”

We went rock climbing today.  The challenge of it all obsesses me.  It was so much fun!

Mary is a beautiful woman of God.  If she wanted me…I’d be hers.  I’m so thankful for these three weeks to be in her presence.  She is so adventurous and so in love with Jesus. She is brilliant!  She plans to go back to Oklahoma to finish school in August.

Your will Lord.  Your will only.  Please show me what to do.  Take care of our hearts.  If this goes any further than fleeting emotion then…well God, I need a Godly wife.  Someone to share this life with.  If my prayers have anything to do with it, then I want her.


September 16, 1995 – Saturday – 4:50 p.m.

I did go to Boone today.  I went with Amy and Donnie and we ate out at Makoto’s and signed up to be extras in movies.  We also went to see Nine Months at the dollar theater.  It was funny and kind of freaky.  But it did make me realize that one day far off in the future, my life would mainly revolve around my wife and children.

A huge life is ahead of me.

I have seen so little.

But there is no reason to rush it.

As for today… I am content.

November 20, 1994 – Sunday – 1:50 a.m.

Jeni and I spent the whole day together after Marcus and Scott left.

It was a wonderful day of us just being close to each other.

Near the end of the day she told me this:

“Jacob, there are two things I am determined to do in life.  The first is to be a servant for Christ.  The second is to become your wife.”

I couldn’t move.  She shocked me.

And I replied: “Nothing would please me more.”