March 14, 1995 – Tuesday – 9:00 p.m.

I worked at McDonald’s from 8:00-4:00 p.m.  Eight hours!  Mike was there.  It was fun.  I did the drive-thru.  I wasn’t looking forward to working, but I made it fun.

Mike is such a good friend.  I am so lucky to have him as a friend.  Thank you Lord for him.

I talked to Mom tonight.  We talked about a lot of different things.  My mom is okay.  I wouldn’t want another mom. I

t’s nighttime here.  It’s quiet.

I talked to Kristen today.  We talked about Fishnet.  I do plan on going this summer.  I can’t wait.  I also talked to Leslie, she gave me Kenny’s address.  I will write him.

The radio is playing.  But my thoughts are louder.

There are a lot of things in this world that I have not discovered.  There is so much I do not know.  Yet, here I am, a little boy…thinking he is a man; thinking the whole world revolves around him.  But truthfully he is nothing compared to the sum total of everyone else.  Yet he still plans on saving the world, in fact he thinks he already has.  And perhaps he has, but he will never know.  Time never stops and neither does he.  Yesterday he was born, today he is alive, tomorrow he will be dead.  Yet he continues within his short time to find himself in the fathoms of each day.

Little things mean so much to me.  A picture, a building, a tree, a certain day.  I cherish them like gold, I can’t help it, yet it’s only worth is known only to me.  I am waiting for the love of a lifetime to cross my path and join it with me.  I want to be free, but before I am completely free, I need to share my stories with the world.  I don’t know why, perhaps I’ll find the reasons along the journey.  However, my main goal is to simply experience God’s creation in every way and then tell the world about it through film and theater.  Because in each experience, a truth is learned to make this journey more easy and interesting.

I have my Bible with me to instruct me along the way.  And I have my brother Jesus by my side; the man who has already experienced everything and knows all of the answers.

But for some reason it seems like Jesus doesn’t want to give me all the answers.  He probably figures that will spoil the joy of discovering.

And boy is he right!

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