September 3, 1994 – Saturday – 10:35 a.m.

I can’t believe it’s already September.  A week ago, I spent my last day back home.

I got a part in Once Upon A Mattress.  I’m the 2nd Knight.  I sing and dance and have three lines.  I sing in about four or five songs.  It’s a small part for sure, but it suits me greatly.

Thank you Lord.

Charlie has left for the weekend.  James is still here though.

Thursday night we had a Bible study.  Charlie leads it.  Besides me, there are four other girls in it:  Christy, Glenda, Soco, and a freshman girl named Olivia.  Olivia is a dance major.  When she sees me on campus, she always says hi.  She is really beautiful and is going to go to Heaton Christian Church, the same church I’m going to.

Christy is supposed to pick me up tomorrow since Charlie is out of town.  I feel like I’m the only student here without my own car.

My Friday nights and Saturday nights are free, so I’m going to try and get a job somewhere.

My homework assignment for Acting I is to do a random good deed.  That’ll be fun.

It’s September now.

Once Upon A Mattress opens in October.

The Bible study group is going to try and see Steven Curtis Chapman in concert soon.

I have a new family here.

And in four years, I’m pretty sure it will hurt to leave.

August 29, 1994 – Monday – 2:55 p.m.

It’s getting better.  I’ve met some people, some beautiful girls.  One girl named Eliana is going to help me on my Once Upon A Mattress audition.  

All of this is actually fun.

I’m in an Alpha class.  It’s like a college orientation class.  We’ve done a lot and I met many new freshmen.

My roommate’s name is Mike.  He is the opposite of me in beliefs, but we get along.  Across the hall is my RA.  His name is Charlie.  He is an awesome Christian and I’m going to go to church with him, the same church I visited yesterday.

I’ve met some theater people and even talked to the music director of Once Upon a Mattress.  I just wanted him to know my name and face.  The phone lines aren’t ready so I haven’t called any one back home yet.

But I am feeling a little sick.  Not home sick.  Just sick.

August 15, 1994 – Monday – 9:50 p.m.

I spent the day with Kenny.  All he talked about was Jessica.  He took her out Saturday night, and they both had a good time.  Boy does he have it bad for her now.  We went out to eat and rode around.  He is staying with Tony’s brother’s family.  They are really nice.

The dad of the family plays catch with their two sons and they all eat dinner at the table at the same time and they even hold hands while they pray.  I wish our family was like that.

Then Kenny came back here and we talked about Jessica.  She leaves for Sweden on Wednesday morning.  He is going to bring her flowers.  And he’s considering going to Sweden to see her later on.  I thought it was a crazy idea, but I helped him call a travel place to find out how much plane tickets actually are.  We’ll see.

The next 12 days of my life will be spent here.  And many days after that will not.

It’s all coming to an end.  I can’t believe it.  What did it all mean?  What was all of this for?  Why do I keep asking myself unanswerable questions?

Everything is so good now.  I have so many friends and there is no tension between any one, except for Cheryl and Joel of course, but the point is, my life is so good.

Perhaps that is why I have to leave.  It’s going to be hard to start over, but I will make it and my life will start anew in the mountains.

I got some information in the mail reminding me that I have to audition for Once Upon A Mattress.  It is a requirement for my scholarship.  The auditions are on August 31st and September 1st and require a song and dance routine.  I’ve never auditioned for anything.  Oh boy!

But my God is with me.

One more Sunday.

Two more Wednesdays.

Two more Saturdays.

By the way things look at the moment, my life here might just have a happy ending.