I have been a Christian for a total of 12 years now. Today is my spiritual birthday.
It’s hard to know what I’m feeling right now. Let me just try to catch up.
Sunday after church, Josh and I went shopping in Johnson City, TN then we picked Vince up from the airport. We went to church that night and saw a presentation of the musical Star Queen. It was so wonderful.
Sarah called me that night and then came over to see my Christmas tree. We held hands and talked for nearly two hours. She told me so many neat stories. She has such an amazing heart and the world is so beautiful through her eyes.
She has gone to see a show two hours away tonight. I am on duty and miss her greatly.
After she left at 11:00 p.m., Vince took me out to Subway and then we came back here and ate to the light of my Christmas tree.
I got some Teen Mania information today in the mail. I began to cry as I read over it. The Lord moved upon me. I am applying to go on a two month mission trip to either India or South Africa next summer. I am insanely excited!
There are only two weeks left of classes. I don’t have any exams during finals week. In less that 18 days I take the GRE.
Christmas is so soon. It hardly feels real.
And the wonderful burden of everything changing is resting upon the shoulders of my mind right now. I haven’t talked to Emily since May. Sarah and I are telling each other things we tell no one else. Auditions for the spring show are in one week. I direct a one-act next semester. Once the new semester begins in January, there will only be four months left until it’s all over.
Sarah is a freshman. I am a senior. Why does the world work this way?
I had to look through some old boxes for a picture negative earlier this evening and I came across a lot of ancient stuff. Memories flooded my heart and soul. And I realized how much things really have changed since I first arrived on this campus. And then I realized how much everything was getting to change even more.
Oh Jesus, you are my one constant companion. You are by my side no matter what!
Humble me God.
You are all I have.
You are all I’ll ever have.
I need you now.
More than ever.