June 7, 1995 – Wednesday – 10:10 p.m.

I am not very happy at the moment.  I miss my home.  I miss Banner Elk.  I miss Heaton Christian Church.  I miss my friends.  I want to go home.  I don’t belong here anymore.  This is not where I should be.

But I trust you Lord.  You have a plan.  Everything here that I have cherished is now gone.  It has all vanished.  I have very few friends, very few people to talk to.

I have even been finding myself thinking about Erica, the girl I met at the David and the Giants concert.  I have her number.  I might call her.  I might try to say hello to one more person.

January 27, 1995 – Friday – 1:20 p.m.

Today has been great, but last night was not.

Last night I was going to watch Silence of the Lambs.  I had never seen it, but it did win the Oscar for Best Picture a few years ago, so I wanted to see it for that reason alone.  It was fine, but I didn’t like it that much, but Jeni was disappointed in me for watching it because of some of its subject matter.

Then, I started thinking about home, and it hurt because I am homesick for a home that doesn’t exist anymore.  It has all changed.

Jeni’s homesick, but she can go back home.  It has hardly changed at all.

I can’t go back.

So, it was a rough night.

In fact, it has been a rough week.

But this morning, Jeni and I went for a walk.  We stopped at the bridge that runs over Elk River and we talked, prayed, kissed, and laughed.

Things will get easier.

January is quickly coming to an end.

February is so close.

On March 10th, spring break begins.  Jeni and I will either be in Ft. Lauderdale, Florida or Cincinnati, Ohio.  We haven’t decided yet.

School gets out for the summer around May 15th.

Another summer.

The summer of ’95.

Hopefully I will visit Deep Creek and Fishnet again.

But then again I don’t really know what will happen.  We shall see.

I love Jeni and I love this cold weather, but I’m looking forward to the warmth.

January 26, 1995 – Thursday – 1:30 p.m.

I’m in the college post office at this time.

Jeni and I spent some nice quality time together last night.  She has been homesick ever since we got here.  She loves her mommy.  For a while, I thought I was the one bringing her down, but it turns out she just wants her mom.

Everything else is okay.  Jonathan and I still email.  He’s okay.  He wrote me today and told me that I was the most special person to him on this planet.

Tonight, our World Civilization class is watching Black Robe.  I don’t know what it is about, but we get extra credit if we watch it.

A few nights ago, I figured out how three-way-calling works and Brandon and Jeni and I talked at once.  It was cool.

All is well.