Nineteen Hundred and Ninety Four will be over in 31 hours and ten minutes.
It is hard to sum it all up. But we all know what basically happened. Jenna and Tenielle came. Ryan and Christi left. I found Ryan and Christi at the last moment once more, but then I left all four of them plus many more. I left them during the summer. An amazing summer filled with Fishnet and Deep Creek. I left them to meet many others, one in particular…Jeni.
We have been together for over three months. And together we will go into 1995!
Much more happened, many small intangible moments, but nevertheless, it is all over now.
And it is time for me to finally say goodbye.
I need to. I need to realize that I cannot go back. It is my home, and yes, part of me is still there, but I do believe that no one can have more than one home at one time.
Thank you everyone for making me smile. And thank you so much for making me laugh. Thank you Grant and Wynne. You guys were so funny during high school.
In a way I wish I could stay forever young. Those were some fun days.
I believe I can stay forever young, but not there at Chatham Central High School.
And I give a special thank you to everyone at Abundant Life Christian Center. I adored that place and the people there. You all treated me with so much love and respect. You made me laugh as well. I know that there must have been some bad times, but at this moment, I can’t recall anything that destroyed our lives.
However, more than my goodbye, there are good memories. Good memories that will stay with me for a long time.
As 1994 comes to a close, so does my will to return.
I can’t return, therefore I wish to go into the future. And Lees-McRae College is my immediate future. One semester down and seven more to go.
So goodbye. I accept the fact that it never again can be.
1995 will arrive and I will live in 1994 and not in 1994 or 1993.
What will 1995 bring?
I couldn’t tell you.
By the time 1996 rolls around I will have learned a lot and experienced so much. I can guarantee that.
Tomorrow, I will meet Jeni in White Sulphur Springs, West Virginia and ride with her family back to Ohio. We will spend a week together then return to Lees-McRae and unite with our great Christian friends and travel to Albany, Georgia to spend another week helping in the flood relief work there.
Then, together we experience the spring semester at Lees-McRae College. Hopefully the campus will be covered in snow for the entire semester, summer will roll around, and then God will paint the leaves again during the fall semester. Christmas will come again, etc., etc….
So there it is.
Thank you Lord for 1994 and thanks for 1995.
Thank you for Jeni.
And thank you for you.
You Lord are what brings the true joy. You are what gives all of this meaning.