December 23, 1993 – Thursday – 11:10 a.m.

The day turned out different than I thought it would, although it isn’t over yet.

A few days ago, I figured I would talk to Jenna and Tenielle on Wednesday night and even though I just wanted to be their friend, we would still do something together today, since I would be in town getting some last minute shopping done.

Well, it snowed, and last night I didn’t really get to talk to them.  I also wanted to see Jason and Christi, but it doesn’t look like I’ll be able.  We leave tomorrow morning really early.  

I mailed Christmas cards off.  With Ryan, I just wanted to share everything with her about how I used to feel, but I didn’t, I just said Merry Christmas and thanks.

I miss Christi so much.  Cheryl gave me a Christmas Card and a candy cane last night.  So did Ryan and Amy.

It’s been a month and four days since I’ve seen Les Miserables.  That’s hard to believe.

It’s been a year since I’ve seen Brandon.

A year.

Brandon and I tried to tip a cow one time, but it was awake.  That was last November.

In Anne’s Christmas card, I told her when she gets back to college to take her time and not come back so soon.  Because when she comes back for the summer, that means its almost time for me to leave.

I don’t want to leave.

It’s too perfect here, but I know I must go.

Already it seems like I’m gone.  But I still have eight and a half months.

When I spent the night at Danny and Peter’s, it felt so weird.  It wasn’t my bed, it wasn’t my shower, it wasn’t my shampoo.

I’ve grown too accustomed to this place, but soon I’ll get used to another shower.

Right now, I’m in my room, my home, but it seems as if I’m so much farther away.

October 9, 1993 – Saturday – 10:15 p.m.

Today is Sat. and today I took the SAT.

Ha ha.

It wasn’t that mind-boggling.

We had skit practice today and it was actually fun.  We might be getting back on track.

We had youth group on Thursday because Shurby left earlier today to go to Florida for an evangelism thing.

I worked last night.  I don’t like working anymore.  I definitely don’t look forward to it.

But the big news of the day is also the most devastating.  Jason and Anne broke up.

I know, I was speechless too.  I don’t know how or why but it happened and if I every find out I will tell you.  But it just goes to show you how things are changing.  Not much is the same anymore.  I guess it shows that we’re all growing up, and that is good.

Jason and Anne were supposed to get married.  He gave her a promise ring.  But it looks like its all over now.

Father God, let your will happen.  That’s all I pray.