Life has recently been spent in rehearsal, class, work, and with Marie. We had our most favorite special “friend day” yesterday on a little peer out at Munden Point Park. It is a perfect place of reflecting light, green trees, and blue sky. We were barefoot little kids playing in life-giving water and spitting on mosquitoes. A perfect day, an eternal instant, we wanted to spend our entire lives there.
Sarah emailed me this past week. I emailed her back and let her know that I did not want to continue to keep in touch, that it was not fair to Marie.
I spoke with Tracey this morning. Charlie was punched in the face and knocked out cold by a resident. He felt the school didn’t support him, so he quit his Residence Life job and left Lees-McRae. He’s staying with his parents, but they don’t want him there. Kate moved down to Franklin, NC with her parents who recently moved there.
Dan is back in Colorado.
Tracey and Abigail’s Seven Strangers band is making a demo tape. Everything is supposedly going really well for that little band.
Vince and Natalie have spent the past two weeks in New York with Vince’s dad.
And Lindy is trying to get certified in aerobics.
The Regent community, or rather our small group of Communication School acquaintances, are beginning to put two and two together when it comes to Marie and I. Many guys have asked Marie if she is seeing someone because she has this “certain glow.”
She tells them yes.
I think it is funny.
I applied for an office manager job for a children’s theater company in Norfolk. I pray God blesses me with it.
Children are playing outside my window now. It’s very clear that March begins in four days. The sounds are in the air.
I apologized to Marie last night for kissing Jeni and Sarah. I told her I wished I had waited for her alone. I regret the words and phrases I have written in past journals about other girls, thinking and believing I wanted to spend my life with them, thinking and believing I loved them so deeply.
Forgive me God. I wish I could erase those pages from my journal.
I love you Jesus. Thank you for this redemption. I place my past and my sin before you. You are holy and beautiful.