Happy Valentine’s Day!
Marie and I spent yesterday afternoon with a young married couple (younger than us) named Lori and Ben from Avalon Hills. They are wonderful. That evening after church Marie and I spoke practically of marriage. My insides were going crazy.
In a year and a half we are both leaving this place together. Perhaps we’ll be married in New Jersey. I would like that.
Marie can work off some of her school loans by working as a teacher in a teacher-shortage area like Arizona or Wyoming. How exciting!
I’m ready for anything.
This is your life God!
. . .
I’ve just been sitting here thinking. My insides are pondering. I’ve worked myself into an awkward corner. My entire life has pointed in the direction of being a storyteller, of working in theater and film. Did I put that desire there in my heart, or did God?
I do not believe that I could have come this far if God did not do this. How this is going to happen, I do not know. Perhaps it is best if I don’t even really try and just let go. I must do what the Lord said so long ago, just show up every day. Of course, now, showing up means loving Marie. And it means sharing life with someone. I see now why God makes men single for a while. He must prepare their hearts.
I don’t want to just direct movies and theater productions, I want to also be alive. And it grows clearer and clearer with each passing day that I will only be alive for a very short while. I want to be alive with Marie.
So, I made Dang! and that might be the only one. I had some great acting moments on a few different stages and there may not be any more moments. I just want to love God, love the woman I marry, love our children, and never let my heart grow cold. I just want to breathe in this beautiful creation with every new day.
Take me Lord, wherever you want, I’ll go.