I feel like crying…crying because I don’t have best friend here. At the moment, I feel so very much alone, very misunderstood, and I never feel like I can fully relax into the friendships I have here.
I talked to Justin, Abigail, Tracey, and Sarah the other night. They sounded so good. Sarah and I are all healed and that completely amazes me. But these dear people are all far away. Justin is in town, but at camp. I leave in a week, so I won’t get to see him.
I’ll soon be around a new group of people. Before I even depart, I guy I don’t know from Richmond is staying with me for a week while he helps out on a film shoot.
Oh Jesus…what is going on?
How am I doing?
I feel life has become so different and I don’t want it to be. Is it my perspective or are things really changing? Am I still young? What do you want me to do? Where have all my simple joys gone? I am missing them so. Why all this stress? Life didn’t use to be this way.
Mom called me the other night. She and Henry are having problems in their marriage. They say they’re spiritual attacks because of their involvement with the Brownsville Revival and they are going to counseling. I hope they’re still good.
There is a family reunion happening at Deep Creek, but I can’t go due to the film shoot.
Change. I both love and hate it.