I went to see Emily yesterday. She looked different; she looked like Cheryl. We sat out by her lake and talked, we drove around to meet the rest of her family and talked, and we went to a park in Crestview where we sat on top of an A-frame jungle gym and did the only thing we know how to do… talk.
We live in two separate worlds. She is sun and I moon. She is a fish and I am a bird. How can we ever be together? As sad as it may sound, I believe I have only been in love with the idea of Emily these past five years, for who she is in my mind is more amazing than who she is in person. It is my perception that makes her so special and beautiful.
We may go out to a movie tonight, I am not sure.
But I have found contentment in our relationship. This mysterious gift God has given to me through her these past five years has helped me endure some rough days. Perhaps in some way I have been the same thing for her. Perhaps that is our destiny for each other, to learn how God sees everyone as perfect, even when we are not.
Oh, how life brings many joys.
These have been relaxing days. I’ve just been playing Zelda on the 64 during most of my free time. It’s called Ocarina of Time, and it is the most wonderful game I have ever played. It has been fantastic to just be free of all other work and just play that game.
I am looking forward to seeing Christin again. She is a joy to me. Bless her tonight oh Lord.