I have so little time left here. So little time left in Africa. So little time around these people. So little time left on this planet.
I read a quote today by Frank Lawbach, “I have this minute in my control. It is all I really do have to work with. It is as magnificent or drab or vile as the thoughts which fill it. I fear our most common sin is empty minutes.”
Ephesians 5:15-16 tells us to redeem the time, to set our time free from evil, to fill our life with good. My life is full of empty minutes. But I don’t want to live through another one ever again. The other teams that went to Swaziland and Escourt came back today. It was so great to see everyone. I had been missing them and didn’t even know it. I spent time talking with Jessica. She has such a sweet spirit in her. And then I talked with a girl named Emily here. She is 15 and so smart. She has such a Godly heart. And while talking with her and hearing her passions, I realized that so many of the minutes I spent with Sarah were empty. Many were filled with life, but many were not. I was hurt by her. Why do the ungodly ones always want me, but the Godly ones never do?
Well, last night, we went to a youth service, and I went up for prayer for God to help me give my past up to him. I ended up on the floor and God definitely did some work in me.
And so, I am moving forward. I will still keep in touch with Sarah, but I need to let her know that I need to be away from her to grow.
I think she already knows that though.