December 25, 1997 – Thursday – 6:00 p.m.

It is Christmas, but then again it always has been.  Right now though, it feels nothing like Christmas, for I am no where near anyone I truly love.  The only good thing that has happened was talking to Sarah for over an hour last night.  We had a wonderful conversation.  I love her more and more each day.

But now I am in Richmond, VA.  I was at my dad’s parents house earlier, but nothing happened.  We finally opened presents around 3:30 p.m., but all I got was money.  I have become a stranger to everyone here.  They don’t know me.  If I have my way, and I don’t see why I can’t, I’ll never spend another Christmas here again.

But my mom’s side is different.  There is love in that house, but only bitterness and complaining in these places on my dad’s side.  I never want to come here again.

Forgive me God, but I just want to spend Christmas from here on with people who know and love you.

To spend it with Sarah.

Our talk last night was so wonderful.  She sees everything in the world with such beauty. I long to see life from here on in her eyes.  She is the most amazing and beautiful creature I have ever come across.  She puts all others to shame.

I love her.

I love her.

I love you Sarah.  Bring us close together God, and use us for your will.

Well, Merry Christmas everyone.  I hope you are around someone you love.  I am going home on Saturday and I will see Sarah again soon.  But even now, I feel near to her.

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