I felt really homesick on Friday night. McDonald’s was very difficult that day. I just wanted to go home. So, I called up Sharon. Laura answered the phone. I talked to her a little bit. Sharon made me feel a lot better and helped me remember who I was.
Saturday was another busy day, but Omenya was there and that made it fun. That afternoon, and went to Greensboro and saw two movies: Ransom and The English Patient. Ransom was okay, it made me cry, but I really didn’t like it. The English Patient however was a little dull, but one of the most beautifully photographed films I’ve ever seen.
At church this morning, a girl whom I haven’t seen in over a year and a half came and sat by me. Her name is Nana. We talked before the service. She, unlike every other person from long ago, seemed to be on the right track. It was great to see her and talk to her.
There was a Christmas gathering with Henry’s side of the family. It was great to see everyone. I was blessed with some clothes and a wallet.
This evening, I helped Marcus out with Children’s Church. He is so good with kids. That is his gift. We had a cool conversation on the way back home.
I have so longed for heaven, and I still do, but I forgot that I can have so much of heaven right now. Romans 5:1-2 say that grace is all around me. Grace is unearned blessing. It isn’t simply love, but it is a free gift and the ability to have everything from God. The second verse says that I stand in grace right now. Therefore, the glory of God is all around me for the taking. Glory means character and actions. God’s character and actions and perception on every possible thing is all around me for the taking in the spirit.
So, I ask for three things.
- To know all there is to know about serving my God. Every in and out. I long to know all the things I don’t even have the life experience or wisdom now to know that I need to know them. I long to know God’s will and purpose.
- To know all there is to know about crafting stories through theater and film.
- To know all there is to know about being a loving husband and father. I want to be a man of God who puts his family first.
I am not of this world. I will live on this planet, but not in this world of sin. I will naturally grow closer to heaven. This is what I want.
All of it.
And by the grace of God…I will have it.