I wish I could be at church right now. I can’t wait until the next time I get to see Laura, or the next time I get to talk to Crystal.
But instead, I have to stay here for Team Meetings and A Piece of My Heart.
Jeni received her poem and she agreed to be my friend like the last line had read. She is my friend forever.
Something has happened. I didn’t think about it or write about it because I didn’t think it was important. However, someone has died and I believe now is the time to face it.
A beautiful young girl is now dead. For all I know I could be next.
A few days ago, a student here at Lees-McRae came down with some sort of bacterial meningitis and was hospitalized. This disease is supposedly spread by kissing or drinking after one another or even by smoking the same cigarette.
This student was given a 20% chance to live. Two other guys on campus were carriers of this disease, but they weren’t effected by it. However, the beautiful young girl that died was the girlfriend of one of the two carriers. The other guy’s girlfriend is in a coma. They do not go to this school, but they both live in North Carolina.
A medicine was freely given that kills this virus in you. It has weird side effects, making your urine, sweat, and tears turn orange. It causes soft contacts to turn orange and unusable. I wear soft contacts and I don’t have glasses. For that reason I chose not to accept the medicine because then I wouldn’t be able to see. My vision is really bad.
A dancer kissed the boy who was hospitalized, and now other Performing Arts students are showing more signs and symptoms.
Charlie told me tonight that I must go tomorrow to get this medicine. This may not be a big deal, but I wanted to mention it here anyway.
But after Charlie said that to me, a horrible thought entered my mind: “You are going to die Jacob. That is why you and Jeni broke up when you did…so this would be less painful for her. Soon you will leave all of this and meet Jesus. It’s your time to go. You have done all you are supposed to do.”
Later I told Charlie my thought. Jokingly he said, “Bummer, I wanted to be in one of your movies in the future.”
Because I had to ask myself, “What did I do here?”
And even if I am not dying, still, what have I accomplished? Whose lives have I changed? Have I done enough?
The answer was obvious.
No, I haven’t.