October 16, 1994 – Sunday – 1:20 a.m.

I have finally found my dream girl.

Her name is Jeni and she is amazing.

Tonight after watching some of the homecoming games and watching a video with Derek and Becky, Jeni and I were playing on her bed, cuddling and kissing (Tracey was out), and then after a while there was a look on her face.  I asked her what was on her mind.  To sum it all up, there was something she had been needing to tell me, but she had been putting it off.  She said she would tell me, but she couldn’t look at me.  She told me that with her past boyfriend Craig, something happened with their relationship.  One evening, they went a little too far physically, but she is still a virgin.  I’m not entirely sure what that means, but she wishes it never happened and she always knew if there was a guy in her life that she cared about greatly again, he should know.

She was afraid I wouldn’t want to see her anymore.  It shocked me, but it is the past.  I told her it was okay and that I forgave her and that the Lord had forgiven her.

Then we talked about us.  I told her that I enjoy being close to her and kissing her, but that I enjoy getting to know her by talking to her even more.  She agreed and for the rest of the evening we talked about a few things, but eventually we just affirmed each other.  I told her that I didn’t want to get any closer to her physically.  She felt the same way and we just kept telling each other how wonderful we thought the other person was.

Then we prayed for the Lord to help us grow closer together through him.  I love praying with her.

Then Jeni said, “You’re making this so easy.”

“Easy for what?” I asked.

“For me to fall completely in love with you.”

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